November 25, 2017 | IDK

Alright. So a lot has happened since my last post. One of those things is that I now have a girlfriend! lol. This is like my first girlfriend to be honest. Other girls I have kissed or stuff and it’s only been like 2. It’s only lasted like 2 weeks and shit. Like minor dates. This girl, I’ve been with her for like over 1 month. I’ve met her parents, she’s met my dad and my dad’s family. It’s been great but she doesn’t quite know that I am going through psychotic episodes. I don’t quite know how she doesn’t notice it. She’s amazing though. I really like her, like a lot! I met her at a psych hospital, lmaoooo. She was there for a suicide attempt. She has bipolar and PTSD. She seems more normal than me, to me at least. I’m going to tell her that I have Schizophrenia if I am diagnosed with it. Oh well. If she decides to leave the relationship, it is quite understandable. Dammit. I am still going through these spiritual/philosophical delusions daily and it’s eating away at my mind and morality. Man, I just hope one day there is a cure for all Mental Illness! 🙂 That would be great! I just want to love again, to feel like myself again. I want to enjoy life and love others as they love me. I want to find the spark in my life again. Honestly, I really hope I can be healed from my mind. I know that many have completely recovered and healed fro Lulm Schizophrenia, and I want to be one of these people. If others have recovered and healed, why can’t I? Lil RPG out.

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