June 11 2017 | Dying
I am dying inside. I feel like my brain is fried, it’s tired. I don’t know if my wiring in my neurons will ever recover. I feel lost and desperate to not exist anymore. I just can’t deal with my situation anymore. Again, it’s the same thoughts, racing in my mind. I feel anxious. My head feels so messed up that I feel nauseous. I don’t know how much longer I will make it like this. There is however a tiny, miniature, and I mean tiny, spectacle of hope in me, that wishes to find an answer to my situation and find true happiness. Maybe it’s death, I don’t know. I really don’t know anything but Java and Linux at this point.