June 7 2017 | Darkest Moment
Today I went to school. I feel really anxious, sleepy, depressed, without a sense of purpose whatsoever. I cannot feel any worse, or think any worse. I have arrived to the darkest moment of my life. I do not know how to get out of what I’m in, or if I will ever. I cannot continue like this. Medication only seems to worsen things, as now I feel like a zombie. I feel numb. All I do is eat and sleep. I cannot function. My mind is boggled by my intrusive thoughts and medication. I feel like real shit. Seriously, do not ever say you feel like shit if you’ve never felt the way I am feeling now. This is horrible, & I do not like it. I need an out to this. I do not want to live like this. i want out. I want out now. Why did this happen to me? I have no idea. WTF is my life about right now? I am literally a waste of oxygen to society at this point. A waste of space & effort. I want out. Why did I ever exists is my question. I only existed to question existence. Now that I question it, i cannot cope with the thoughts and questions.