June 1st 2017 | Anxiety
Today I had an anxiety attack at school. I was thinking about the same intrusive thought all day and then I begin getting really anxious. I wanted to walk out and go to the restroom. My breathing accelerated. Then I was asked to go to the front of the class. Boy was that hard. I was already anxious and that just completely ruined it for me. My mind went blank. My head was already at 100% CPU usage. It was kinda bad. I was nervous. Then when I was at my desk out of nowhere I kicked really fast. Like a random reflex. After that I felt like I lost notion of where I was. It was really bad. After that, my intrusive thoughts continued and I cried a lot a my house. A lot. I sobbed. My mom hugged me and made me feel better. It has been really, really freaking bad. I don’t know how to carry on. It feels impossible. Anyways, there is a saying that says that what is impossible to man is possible to God.